toxicstardust987

And I will always love it, even though I moved 9 years ago, and haven’t been to visit in 4.

I’ve been to Chicago before, but I don’t think it counted as actually seeing the city. I was only in the airport on my way to my dad’s house one year. Not the most impressive sight in Chicago. So I’ll just say that I haven’t technically been there. I wanna go.

I was there from 11.15-11.18.05. I saw the Statue of Liberty, Ground Zero, the Empire State Building, Ground Zero, Cafe Wha?, and the Comedy Cellar all in one day! Wonderful time.

Seeing Ground Zero was incredibly emotional for me…but I didn’t even cry. I couldn’t. I didn’t believe I was there. Ideals such as patriotism were not even relevant. It was even more profound than a thing like that. I just stood there and looked at the cross that had accidentally been shaped by the metal beams of the Center’ frame, and the vast multi-layered pit of where the ground floor used to be. It was something I can’t put into words.

I was speechless on the inside and outside, and as one of the souvenir vendors wandering outside showed me one of the published photo albums of the WTC history he was offering, which had pictures of the planes hitting the the towers in it, I can only remember feeling intensely furious and upset and disgusted. I looked at him and asked, “why would I want to buy pictures of thousands of people dying?” He walked away, with an embarrassed look on his face. He was a foreinger, who had to make some kind of living, and in another circumstance I would have been more polite, but I couldn’t let myself feign a smile and warmly say “thanks anyway.”

I would love to go again, and I urge others to see Ground Zero. You don’t need to like the United States or agree with the war in Iraq. I just invite everyone to share the emotional experience, by all means.